Then when words were unnecessary, now when they're not enough(part II)

I am sorry.
I have said this to you before.
Listen to me again.
I am trying to find the truth.
The truth you keep from me.
This time, please hurl it at me.

I asked you to never refrain.
From demanding from me.
A word, a hug, an apology, an explanation.
All I asked was that you never sleep on it.
Never confess it in an empty chamber.
Never try to justify it to yourself.
I am sorry.
This time, please scream at me.

I had it the other way around,
And I am glad that I am also to blame.
I always always knew where you were.
And yet, I didn’t see you shift your weight.
Off of our feet to your own.
You stopped complaining.
And I mistook that for the kind of easy silence we shared once.
Today, I am left searching for the words I missed.

I thought I knew you once.
I thought i didn’t, anymore.
You are my heart.
And a part, 
of every piece of it.
Each with a stranger story than the last.
I don’t remember when I started wanting to let you in.
I can’t let you make your piece and walk out.
This time, I’d rather explode than fade away.