Accidental. Impossible.

You walked in, a quiet soul.
Your presence, I could not comprehend,
Just that I needed to know you more.
You strolled around, never spoke a word.
Glances you stole, oh so many.
Never an answer. Never a question.
Never out of beat, never a tune.
If I caught any, I pondered.
Accidental.
Impossible. 
You were always just outside, distant.
On the periphery, in my rear view.
In my thoughts that came unbidden.
The brush of unknown fingertips in the crowd.
Accidental.
Impossible.
I lost so many I loved. 
I pushed them away. 
I let them go.
When you moved into my sight, I don't know.
I wasn't supposed to love you at all.
I wasn't supposed to know.
Accidental.
Impossible.
To you, I could tell it all.
A tear never left my eye, and yet I dug you out and buried myself raw.
You kept me safe. You let me carve out
In a fear so constant, of everything so ephemeral, 
A fleeting soul, in an open cage, you sheltered.
Accidental?
Impossible?
On an infinity, with you at one end,
I loop towards, closer than ever.
I will loop away soon.
The closer I am, the closer to farthest I shall be.
You are not the sun, you do not scorch.
You are the auroras.
Infrequent yet constant.
Bright yet you take not the darkness away from the night.
The beauty that is mine and far from my reach.
The beauty that time cannot breach.
When I shot out last, freed,
I didn't know where I was going. Whom I'd meet.
You just happened to be.
Lost. By different means. From different stories.
Tied to different contexts. To be pulled back, pushed away.
For some moments, suspended nowhere.
Accidental. Impossible.